If the ground welcomes me tonight...
I choose not to lay by the dirt's side.

 

If my heart opens up to your lies...
I hope for a miscarriage inside.

 

I will expel the demons of your past
and I will fade your memories to black.

 

The seed which you have planted
with your forked tongue
deep inside the cave of my ear
has rooted in my mind like a feverish, lucidic drug
bringing my life into a constant state of fear

 

you have only acid pouring from your dreams
and it is dissolving the thread that so loosely clings

 

and your mouth drips a poison with every word you speak
the deception in your breath causes my foundation to grow weak

 

yet I will destroy the virus you have forced inside my soul
and I will grow strong once I shake off your hold

 

because you are the essence of all that is shallow
an illusion I fell victim to
you are the devil's hands
the zealot he works through
but you are nothing after I make my stand

 

because I am compassion -breaking the lie
I am love -withstanding, pure and untouched
I am romance -an idea, a dance, a song
I am the growing flower -beauty, purity, new and lush
I am the sun shining from up on high  -gazing ever down from above

 

I am me -reborn, impregnated with faith
I hold the love of God- and with it, the destruction of hate

 

-JPG
8/15/06

 

 

What is this then if not the beginning of love? Love is not controllable, love can not be sped up, it can not be slowed down.

 

 

 Love is an absence. It does not fill any gaps, it does not seep into your heart. Love is an emptying of fear- it's a facing of the danger and the risks that are part of being love. It's losing the fear that we all hold of being hurt by another. It's the emptying of the concrete foundations that support our defenses.

 

 Love is the truest and most emptying form of loss. It's losing yourself- mind, body, and soul; in the eyes of another.

-JPG

 

 

 

sooo

 

how's it going?

 

 

things are good

 

Best Buy is good.

There's an amazing girl Im prolly gonna fall in love with that Im talking to right now.

 

No school till August 22nd

 

I just drank a bottle of Arbor Mist and am making some Chicken Helper right now

 

Im listening to quite a bit of good music lately.

 

Not much depressin happening lately either.

 

Why am I not posting so much?

http://www.myspace.com/billypunk_the kid

 

Im already having withdrawals being on xanga.

 

Talk to me

 

-JPG

at one time I had friends which made my life worth saving....

 

fuck it

Hello everyone...

 

I gave something away a while ago. And i haven't realized until lately how deep my feelings ran for what I lost.

 

Lately, I've been wanting it back more and more.

 

A second chance is maybe too much too ask... but I would be going back into it with different expectations as well.

 

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Alot has happened.

 

Had a nice girl, broke up with a nice girl.

Quit Cingular, start at Best Buy tomorrow- training.

Havent been to the gym in over a month, i need to start going again.

 

Yeah, guess that's all.

 

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Peace

 

-The Kid

My Birthday is Aug 17th